I want to be viewed as a solution not a problem.
“you is kind, you is smart, you is important”
It gets to you after a while. The constant hurt and loneliness. The hurt you can at least mask at times, but you can’t escape the loneliness, it creeps in in the middle of the night and takes grip of you and makes you ache and long in ways you didn’t think were possible.
It has gotten to a point where there’s just simply too many things on my mind, too many things to worry and stress about. It’s affecting everything else I do, it’s not that I’m unhappy, I’m just not happy, I’m in a limbo. I can’t smile and act as if everything is okay anymore, cause it just isn’t. I’m not really sure what to do with myself, I know I need to get my act together and sort things out, but I can’t I don’t even know where to start. I can’t keep running away from it, I can’t keep escaping, but right now that seems like my only option.
All I want is someone to hold me close, and say it will be okay.
